Thank you all for the nice emails and comments. This has definitely been a journey of a lifetime!
Lucy is beautiful and amazing and I couldn't be more proud. I love her so much and she's everything I've dreamed of and more. She's fiesty and funny and perfectly my daughter. Her brothers are going to have fun catching her and her daddy is pretty much done the second he meets her—wrapped around that pretty, tiny finger.
The hard part is that being at SLC makes it impossible for her to let go and just be with me. We're in a room she's not familiar with, yet she still can look out the window and see familiar surroundings. And the nannies she loves walk by the window, which can set her off. The best place for us to play is in the nursery but we're not in there more than a few minutes at a time. I take her for walks in the courtyard and she fell asleep in my arms both days.
We took a trip to the doctor yesterday because she has a cold and they wanted to check her out early since she's a preemie and recently had bronchitis. They love her at SLC and take such great care of her. She does adorable little tricks with her nannies—lots of imitating and clapping.
I think being one of the older babies in the room—she gets bored easily. She walks back and forth and back and forth... the nursery has plenty of toys but she just wants to explore the world. Again, when we take her... I can absolutely see that it's going to be amazing. She smiles at me when we're in environments she likes and she feels safe and comfortable. But she's overwhelmed. The only way I can describe it is like having a new babysitter in the house yet the parents haven't left and keep teasing you by walking in and out of the room so the baby has to readjust every time they leave.
This trip has changed me. I am stronger and more in love than I even knew... and I know that our life as a family will have lots of challenges, but even more, lots of amazing times and abundant love.
The latest on the case: Jessica, the SLC director, called over to the court on Wednesday and told them I was visiting for Mother's Day and asked if maybe the judge could give me a Mother's Day gift while I'm here. That's just the guardianship case... but getting through that will bring us to the adoption case and at least moving forward. Today is Friday so we'll see if we hear back. My fingers and toes are crossed.